Saturday, March 17, 2007
well well well .
its been sometime i post such a long entry .
although i haven start , but i guess it will be long . =\
first of all . my probation is coming to an end and im v happy bout it .
once again , i wanna tks those who were always there for mi .
walking the 15 mths wib mi .
i love u all =)
ray ray , u were there when i needed someone the most .
i seriously thank u for tat .
and tats wad made u my best and most trusted brother .
i will cherish our friendship till the end of my life .
second , after probation , im going to army soon .
im a grown up boy !! haha .
gotta learn how to think carefully b4 i do things liao .
third , god let mi get to noe a ger whom i fell in love wib .
althought the results i got , wasnt wad i wanted to be .
but still , i thank god for letting mi noe tis young lady .
she was there for mi too when i was down .
seriously , i dun see y i deserve tis ending .
but i respect her decision . she's still young . =)
take yr time baby . yes u did asked mi not to put too much hope on u .
but wad i kept inside was , till now . i still nvr tot of giving up on u .
special tks to ray who acc mi so many times and did so many things .
all these r the things i did for her .
ray and i will keep the memories inside us . =)
i nvr regret taking tis path .
and i noe , i still love her .
althought the sillykid now had turned back to deaddoll wib bloodtearz .
but no worries ger . its not yr fault .
i totally understand yr stand .
dun worry bout mi , ill be alright .
i jux dun wan us to change to any other .
i still wan u in my mind , in my heart . a v v good fren to mi .
i dun deny i cant treat u as a normal best gal fren , bcox i still cant let u go .
still hoping and pinning hopes for the better . =\
once , i did told ray , tat there's tis ger who will always be the most impt to mi .
she was once i had a crush on .
but i failed of cox . i made it so confirm to ray tat she was the most impt . number 1 in my heart .
till today , ive come to realised , someone might alrdy taken over the position .
and i didnt even noe it too .
i cant explain it . i wonder if anyone could ?
glad tat i did did things tat made u moved .
tats wad pleased mi the most .
and tats y i didnt gave up . cont to do things to moved u .
hoping tat 1 day , i will be accepted finally .
all i wan was u to be happy .
so sorry if i had given u problems and fan nao .
i will still love and care for u .
therefore if u have any problems in future .
pls dun hesitate to contact mi .
my 24/7 hotline is still on for u .
will nvr lose contact wib u .
tats all i can do . =)
all the best in wadever things u do .
i love u csyL
ill see u on yr bday .
got ya something frm yr wishlist .
u knew wad is it le . haha .
noe u lyk it .
so i got it for u . =)
ill cya on tat day ! xD
sillykid is dead .
deaddoll is back .
blood tearz covering my eyes .
and nth will clean it off .
except u . . .
*. d e a d d o l l -]]
hope to hear frm mi soon .
we shall see .
=)
-The people i SavedKIlled